Be the Change You Want to See in the World

Therapy has taught me so many things. I have learned so much about myself in the past 4 years, and I've changed whole-heartedly for the better. Before I was 30, I used some very unhealthy coping mechanisms just to put one foot in front of the other. I was disconnected from my emotional intelligence, I never listened to my gut. Because I was so disengaged from my emotional intelligence, I didn't understand people. I didn't understand why they behaved the way they did, why they made decisions the way they did, or what made them tick. Looking back, I was a 30 year old child wandering the world, completely in the dark about the true nature of people.

We Have A Roof!

Good afternoon!

I don't have too much to say today, I'm still recovering from a migraine I had Monday. I'm still feeling a bit foggy and detached, and a bit hung-overish. What a fun Labor Day, huh?

Anyways, as of yesterday, we have a roof and I wanted to post a couple of pics. These people meant business, showing up at 6 am. I almost had a heart attack, as I was letting the dogs out to do their business in my pajamas with my hair pointing every which way. They worked fast, and were gone by noon. Behind them, they left our finished roof. The hubby and I think it's bee-u-tiful :)

Please excuse the oh-so-classy dumpster out front :)

Another shot of the roof

Front-on shot

Let's get a closer look!

It's actually brown shingle. I think it will look more brown when the siding is on the house, since the siding is a taupe color.

Love it!

Happy Wednesday everyone!

Insomnia + Jessica= Mrs Grumpus

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It's been a pretty tough week. I haven't gotten much sleep since last Saturday. I have been going through spurts of insomnia since July. I'll sleep good for a couple of weeks, and then have a couple where I sleep for 1-2 hours a night.

I have chronic tension headaches that are acerbated by lack of sleep, so the weeks that I don't sleep I am left with a dull, throbbing pain across my forehead that doesn't go away. The headache doesn't respond to OTC meds and if the insomnia lasts long enough, it heads straight into a migraine.

I loathe these periods of insomnia. I don't feel like myself and my whole schedule is thrown off. I don't have enough energy to work out, which makes me feel guilty. I hate feeling guilty. I also don't have enough energy to keep my house at the sparkling clean standard that I normally hold myself to, which also makes me feel guilty. Did I mention I hate feeling guilty?

I try to sleep, I really do. The thing is, I am exhausted. I want to sleep. I just can't. I found this cartoon that perfectly sums up me trying to fall asleep at night.

(You'll have to click to read, I can't make it bigger)
www.lolpups.com

And yes, I do count sheep at night.

I have a doctors appointment on Saturday morning so I will try to arm-wrestle some sleeping pills out of my doctor. Trying to get narcotics in Kentucky is comparable to trying to win the lottery- in other words, almost freakin' impossible. You basically have to sign away your life, your unborn children, and your unborn children's children to get a prescription. I am, of course, exaggerating. But just barely. And that is just to get sleeping pills. Forget trying to get something for the headache.

All right, I will groggily climb down off my ranting soap box and go find something else to do.

Mrs Grumpus is signing out.

New Beginnings

It was a rough week last week. Lots of little headaches gave way to a migraine on Saturday that is persisting. Grr. Worst time of the year to get a migraine, I have way too much to do! Exciting news though... Jerame started his new job yesterday! I am so proud of him! It was an incredibly hard process, finding a good stable job in this economy. Needless to say, Jerame has been walking on water since he found out he got the job and he could barely contain his excitement all weekend before he started yesterday. He will be making a lot more than what he was making before, not to mention all the perks that come from working for a big company i.e. health insurance, 401K, steady hours, and available overtime. This opportunity will really start a new chapter in our lives and we are ready! In the meantime, I am hoping this migraine goes away and I can continue getting ready for Christmas!