Thursday, March 1, 2012

Insomnia + Jessica= Mrs Grumpus
It's been a pretty tough week. I haven't gotten much sleep since last Saturday. I have been going through spurts of insomnia since July. I'll sleep good for a couple of weeks, and then have a couple where I sleep for 1-2 hours a night.

I have chronic tension headaches that are acerbated by lack of sleep, so the weeks that I don't sleep I am left with a dull, throbbing pain across my forehead that doesn't go away. The headache doesn't respond to OTC meds and if the insomnia lasts long enough, it heads straight into a migraine.

I loathe these periods of insomnia. I don't feel like myself and my whole schedule is thrown off. I don't have enough energy to work out, which makes me feel guilty. I hate feeling guilty. I also don't have enough energy to keep my house at the sparkling clean standard that I normally hold myself to, which also makes me feel guilty. Did I mention I hate feeling guilty?

I try to sleep, I really do. The thing is, I am exhausted. I want to sleep. I just can't. I found this cartoon that perfectly sums up me trying to fall asleep at night.

(You'll have to click to read, I can't make it bigger)
And yes, I do count sheep at night.

I have a doctors appointment on Saturday morning so I will try to arm-wrestle some sleeping pills out of my doctor. Trying to get narcotics in Kentucky is comparable to trying to win the lottery- in other words, almost freakin' impossible. You basically have to sign away your life, your unborn children, and your unborn children's children to get a prescription. I am, of course, exaggerating. But just barely. And that is just to get sleeping pills. Forget trying to get something for the headache.

All right, I will groggily climb down off my ranting soap box and go find something else to do.

Mrs Grumpus is signing out.


  1. I am sad to hear that you are having those problems again to this point. I thought they were somewhat better :(. i wish I knew how to help out!

    1. I wish I knew! I am not thrilled with the state of healthcare in Kentucky, I am going to try to get a referral to a neurologist in Cincinnati. It's a start.

  2. Thats going to be your best bet, have they ever done a sleep test on you just to watch your habbits? You should start a sleep journal with dates, times, pains ect and take it to the specialist.

    1. I had an appointment yesterday, it actually went very well. It was like night and day from my last appointment. I think it's because she had my records from Oregon. Anyways, she gave me some good stuff and I slept like a baby last night! I am on the right track! Plus, she gave me a referral to a doctor in Cincinnati. We'll get there eventually. I could actually give them a very detailed pattern of my sleeping habits already :)